Cherish these moments!!!

Makenzie is 15 weeks old, and it has been so amazing to watch her grow. She has the cutest personality, adorable laugh, and sweet smile! I'm in love with eleven pounds of perfection, and find myself so happy and sad at the same time!it is so weird to have both those feelings simultaneously! Before Makenzie arrived, I was convinced she would be our last baby. Pregnancy and I do not get along well, and the months of morning sickness have been unbearable. I thought for sure that she would have the reflux and colic that Mason had. And then there are those sleepless nights! But, after holding her in my arms, I'm sad at the thought that she will likely be our last baby! I know that every baby is different and you never know what they will be like, but if it were solely up to me, that's a chance I would be willing to take.

I also find myself conflicted as I watch her grow. With Mason, I couldn't wait for him to reach his next milestone whether it was crawling or walking, I always looked forward to what would come next. With Makenzie, I get excited at milestone achievements, and then I become sad at how quickly she is growing. I want her to stay this little forever. I want to freeze time too! I feel so lucky to be home with her until August, but I'm sick at the thought of putting her in daycare and not getting to be with her all day. This is the last time I will have this long of a stretch at home with Mason and Makenzie.

So, cherish those moments! I am trying to savor every moment nursing, every middle of the night feeding, every baby giggle, and even those baby cries where she only wants Mommy! I study her little body as I try to memorize every little feature from her long eyelashes to her skinny fingers, her heart shaped nostrils to her soft baby hair! They grow up too fast, and all too often life gets in the way to just sit and enjoy something so wonderful!